A shortish post this week, mainly because I am feeling sheepish about being very slack over the last few weeks. It's just me being lazy — pure and simple. It's not about the fast diet not working — I really think it works. I have just become very weak-willed for no apparent reason.
So this week, I ended up putting on 0.6lbs. It's not the end of the world, but I think it's safe to say that when trying to lose weight, one should not instead be getting fatter. Staying the same is one thing, but turning back into a roly-poly is quite another! My first fast day on Monday was absolutely horrendous. For some reason, I started getting into the habit of eating once I got into work, when I usually wait until lunch. And I think this has been partly responsible for my downfall (that and all my overeating). Starting the food train in the morning meant I would keep eating until lunch and then I would just have a massive panic at 4pm because I'd eaten all my calories. This happened to me on Monday morning when I decided to start off the day with not one, but TWO nutritious and delicious Oreos. I mean, can you think of anything worse to start your fast day with?? God, Michael Mosley would fucking kill me...
So I ate the Oreos, and for lunch I had a very nice hummus and vegetable stick platter from Morrisons. I am quite lazy, so this was ideal for me, but it wasn't particularly filling. For dinner, I rustled up a turkey curry, but ate more than I should have, so went over my calories. (Urgh, this amount of honesty is actually killing me and I feel very embarrassed, but I need to be truthful). Then, of course, I just felt shit about being so pathetic, so I ate some Kettle Chips. As you do. Oh, and according to MFP, 4 chocolate fingers. 1000 calories, my friends — ON A FUCKING FAST DAY. I crawled into bed early (although it's a wonder I could move at all after all that food) and felt as miserable as sin. I mean, the least you should do after eating all that is enjoy it, but no — I had a massive sulk instead. And whilst in bed, clutching my fat stomach under the duvet, I heard the voice of my BF singing whilst going to collect his dessert from the kitchen: "Mmmm… cheesy cake… cake with cheese… cheesy cake! Mmm-mmm-mmmmm! Cheesy cake…".
On Tuesday I went to Pizza Express for dinner with my friends, and after much soul-searching, I decided against ordering the pizza I actually wanted that was over 1000 calories and opted instead for something lighter. I couldnt bring myself to order a Leggera — they depress the fuck out of me. But maybe that's why I'm not losing weight!
I have started doing a weights routine as well now. My arms look crap at the moment, so I feel a lot better pumping some iron! Had an awkward moment in the living room when my BF corrected my form whilst I was doing bicep curls, but we managed to get past it once I admitted I was being defensive. Also, I think I need to constantly be looking at Jodie Marsh’s body whilst exercising — I am seriously jealous. She looks amazing and I would love to look that buff. But with less effort, obviously.
BF and I went out for a meal on Saturday night, which ended up being three courses. But, I was pleasantly surprised with the outcome. Whilst I finished my starter (goats cheese tart, delicious) I didnt actually finish my main or my dessert — YEY ME! This NEVER happens to me. I ordered the fish and chips because I'm a massive chip lover, but I was quite happy for my BF to take some chips off me and I even gave him the last bit of fish I was saving because it was the best bit. I know it's nothing to write home about given the weight that I put on, but normally, I would just shovel it in no matter what. Actually, I felt a bit sick halfway through — I think it was just the fact that it was all fried and my system freaked out.
I also decided to make fridge cake over the weekend, which was a stupid idea because it is so fattening. But I just wanted it. URGH. Probably because it's a week before Lady Time and I've realised that's when my cravings/mood swings start. I've tried to be more aware of these cycles because it makes life easier for my BF if he has a bit of warning about when I'm going to turn into a moody (yet weepy) bitch. It also makes it easier to understand why my thighs can suddenly become HUGE overnight. Seriously, I woke up on Tuesday and there were two new massive saddlebag-shaped lumps that weren't there the day before! I know I haven't been losing, but I have felt pretty good about my body otherwise. Well, that's my theory…
So anyway, this week wasn't great. And actually, given that I have only kinda got my arse into gear like 10 minutes ago after seeing a formerly fat friend's skinny arm on Facebook, next week might not yield great results either! But I'm meeting up with my uni friends in 7 weeks, so that is the perfect event to use as a goal. I've coasted along a bit, but it would be really nice to get under 11st by then — and that is only 14 fasts! Piece of piss, right? RIGHT?
Thursday 29 August 2013
Thursday 22 August 2013
Week 11 : "I'm Late! I'm Late!...
... And I've put on weight!
No time to say hello, goodbye!
I'm late, I'm late, I'm late!"
Yes, sorry for the delay getting this post out. I really don't know why I didn't do it on Monday. But by now, you may have worked out that I put on this week. Probably because like in Alice In Wonderland, I am a big girl who basically just sees "EAT ME" written on everything… I packed on 1.2lbs — but I am totally OK with that. I was still fighting off sinusitis last week, making a very half-arsed attempt at fasting and absolutely no attempt at any exercise. So I was expecting this result.
What I was not expecting, was to arrive at the office last Monday to find clotted cream, jam and scones at work (brought in for a birthday) along with a million other snack foods. That was hard to deal with on a fast day, even though I had recently eaten the Scone Cake Monstrosity (see previous post). But I did manage to resist until the next day, which is something given how shit I was feeling. Oh, but I did eat three giant pretzels that day. And by three, I obviously mean five.
The rest of the week is a bit of a blur I'm afraid… All I wanted to do was eat nice things that felt comforting, although him indoors stopped me from going down the chippy, which initially I resented massively, but then was thankful afterwards. Sort of. And I really craved curry, probably for the strong flavours because I couldn't taste much, but I couldn't be arsed to make one, and my parents had made chicken with salad when I went round to visit. Not what I had in mind, but I kept telling myself it was better for me and really healthy, blah, blah…
However, by the weekend, I knew I would be well enough to re-start my new exercise programme. So you can imagine my excitement when Saturday finally came — at last, I can go running! Two weeks of feeling crap, but now I could run past the cows with wind in my hair, a burning sensation in my calves and sweat dripping from my brow — hallelujah!
I did nothing. And then I did nothing on Sunday either, deciding to sleep in until 1pm instead. Shame. On. Me. I felt really guilty by the end of the weekend, so naturally I drowned my sorrows/sabotaged myself even further with some pasta and garlic bread. Punishment Pasta, that's what it was…
I think my initial fasting excitement has waned a bit — it's understandable. But I think I just need to get a few good weeks of weight loss under my belt and I will be re-enthused (is that a word?). I have been a bit up and down so I think it's just about getting back into it, which doesn't really feel like an awful, terrible imposition on my life at all. In general, I feel good about my body — I am especially liking my legs right now — so overall, I think that's more important. My body looks better and I feel better about it than I did three months ago, so that's good enough for me right now.
Although next week will be Week 12 — time to have a review and get the measuring tape out I think…
No time to say hello, goodbye!
I'm late, I'm late, I'm late!"
Yes, sorry for the delay getting this post out. I really don't know why I didn't do it on Monday. But by now, you may have worked out that I put on this week. Probably because like in Alice In Wonderland, I am a big girl who basically just sees "EAT ME" written on everything… I packed on 1.2lbs — but I am totally OK with that. I was still fighting off sinusitis last week, making a very half-arsed attempt at fasting and absolutely no attempt at any exercise. So I was expecting this result.
What I was not expecting, was to arrive at the office last Monday to find clotted cream, jam and scones at work (brought in for a birthday) along with a million other snack foods. That was hard to deal with on a fast day, even though I had recently eaten the Scone Cake Monstrosity (see previous post). But I did manage to resist until the next day, which is something given how shit I was feeling. Oh, but I did eat three giant pretzels that day. And by three, I obviously mean five.
The rest of the week is a bit of a blur I'm afraid… All I wanted to do was eat nice things that felt comforting, although him indoors stopped me from going down the chippy, which initially I resented massively, but then was thankful afterwards. Sort of. And I really craved curry, probably for the strong flavours because I couldn't taste much, but I couldn't be arsed to make one, and my parents had made chicken with salad when I went round to visit. Not what I had in mind, but I kept telling myself it was better for me and really healthy, blah, blah…
However, by the weekend, I knew I would be well enough to re-start my new exercise programme. So you can imagine my excitement when Saturday finally came — at last, I can go running! Two weeks of feeling crap, but now I could run past the cows with wind in my hair, a burning sensation in my calves and sweat dripping from my brow — hallelujah!
I did nothing. And then I did nothing on Sunday either, deciding to sleep in until 1pm instead. Shame. On. Me. I felt really guilty by the end of the weekend, so naturally I drowned my sorrows/sabotaged myself even further with some pasta and garlic bread. Punishment Pasta, that's what it was…
I think my initial fasting excitement has waned a bit — it's understandable. But I think I just need to get a few good weeks of weight loss under my belt and I will be re-enthused (is that a word?). I have been a bit up and down so I think it's just about getting back into it, which doesn't really feel like an awful, terrible imposition on my life at all. In general, I feel good about my body — I am especially liking my legs right now — so overall, I think that's more important. My body looks better and I feel better about it than I did three months ago, so that's good enough for me right now.
Although next week will be Week 12 — time to have a review and get the measuring tape out I think…
Tuesday 13 August 2013
Week 10 : A Bit Of A Blur
I am currently suffering from sinusitis, and it is really dragging too. I feel like I have been in a bit of a daze for a week now, and everything has been a bit hazy to say the least! I was genuinely excited about my new exercise plan, but it was halted before it even really got off the ground, but I would really like to run tomorrow, if only to not feel so bad about needing so much sleep at the moment!
I went for a lovely Greek meal with two of my friends last week, and I didn't even have ice cream for dessert! I was pretty impressed with myself. Hey, it's a start… So I was very pleased to have lost a bit of weight (0.6lbs), given my fasts have been terrible. I have decided that soup is just not filling enough because when I get to the afternoon, I am ravenous and end up snacking, which takes me over my 500 calories. So going to have to think of some better food to eat. Sorry soup — you are cheap and easy, but you are not quite big enough for this ride (?)
I had a bit of a fuck up with a cake I was making in the week, actually. That was depressing because I was really looking forward to it and it was just a massive let down. So the story goes: I wanted to make a nice cake for my sister who was coming back from Japan after a year. Instead of rolling out the usual cupcakes, I decided to make a sponge filled with whipped cream and strawberries — summery and easy, right? Apparently not. I baked the sponges and they looked great, so I got to work on the filling, which was strawberries mixed with jam, and whipped cream. Fuck knows what was up with this pot of double cream. I decided against using an electric whisk because I wanted it to be in soft peaks, but I had literally only whisked it about five times with a balloon whisk when the cream went PROPER THICK. Like, way thicker than I needed it to be. FUCK, FUCK, FUCK! OK, never mind, I thought. I will just gently mix in some more double cream, right? Wrong. It just got thicker and thicker. In a panic, I decided to dump it on the sponge as it was and then maybe just try again with the last of the cream. This did not work either. Even though I was stirring slowly WITH A SPOON, it went really thick again! There wasn't much I could do at that point, so I just popped on the top sponge, decorated it and put it in the fridge. The next day (after eating way too much of my mum's curry), I presented the cake to my sis and tried to cut a slice. Motherfucker. No joke — it was a struggle to get quite a large butcher knife through it. I reckon I might have knocked too much air out of the batter when folding in the flour, and it probably didn't help that I had chilled the cake in a very cold fridge for 24 hours. And because it was so dry, it had TOTALLY absorbed the little moisture that was left in the cream. If I had wanted to be positive about this baking monstrosity, I would have said it was like a scones-and-clotted-cream cake. Except the sponge was no way as nice as scones, the strawberries were soggy and the cream had turned into what felt like chunks of butter. Disaster. But everyone had a piece. It tasted OK, but it was not what I had in mind… Welcome home sis!
My sinusitis was getting worse and worse and come Friday, I had to take a sick day. I didn't feel like going down to the shops to get any food, but then I remembered I had bought something from the reduced aisle the day before — doughnut sandwiches. Yes, I know you all think they sound disgusting, but I kinda liked the idea! (They obviously aren't sugared or filled with jam.) I like to try new things and I had previously read about something similar here that made me drool : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Luther_Burger.
Eww. It was GROSS. I ate the BLT but I could not get through the second, and I will eat almost ANYTHING. I really hate waste, but this was too grim, and no amount of sriracha was going to help. Oh yes readers, I thought the situation was going to improve once I added a spicy eastern sauce to the mix. I think the combination of crisp salad veg against the backdrop of a greasy doughnut bun was what did pushed me over the edge... Yuk! I tossed it into the kitchen and shut the door for the rest of the day *shudder* On the plus side, it has put me right off doughnuts.
Oh god, me and Blog Mate watched a very interesting documentary on the BBC. It was called The Men Who Made Us Thin, and it was depressing as fuck. Catch it on iPlayer if you can. It's all about diets and how basically everyone — after losing weight on ANY diet programme —will put it back on in five years. What the fuck is the fucking point??? How do we lose fucking weight then? Do fat people just have to accept they will always be fat?
URGH. I am going to try and watch it again and see if I can glean any meaning or hope from it… If you have any thoughts on it, please let me know!
I went for a lovely Greek meal with two of my friends last week, and I didn't even have ice cream for dessert! I was pretty impressed with myself. Hey, it's a start… So I was very pleased to have lost a bit of weight (0.6lbs), given my fasts have been terrible. I have decided that soup is just not filling enough because when I get to the afternoon, I am ravenous and end up snacking, which takes me over my 500 calories. So going to have to think of some better food to eat. Sorry soup — you are cheap and easy, but you are not quite big enough for this ride (?)
I had a bit of a fuck up with a cake I was making in the week, actually. That was depressing because I was really looking forward to it and it was just a massive let down. So the story goes: I wanted to make a nice cake for my sister who was coming back from Japan after a year. Instead of rolling out the usual cupcakes, I decided to make a sponge filled with whipped cream and strawberries — summery and easy, right? Apparently not. I baked the sponges and they looked great, so I got to work on the filling, which was strawberries mixed with jam, and whipped cream. Fuck knows what was up with this pot of double cream. I decided against using an electric whisk because I wanted it to be in soft peaks, but I had literally only whisked it about five times with a balloon whisk when the cream went PROPER THICK. Like, way thicker than I needed it to be. FUCK, FUCK, FUCK! OK, never mind, I thought. I will just gently mix in some more double cream, right? Wrong. It just got thicker and thicker. In a panic, I decided to dump it on the sponge as it was and then maybe just try again with the last of the cream. This did not work either. Even though I was stirring slowly WITH A SPOON, it went really thick again! There wasn't much I could do at that point, so I just popped on the top sponge, decorated it and put it in the fridge. The next day (after eating way too much of my mum's curry), I presented the cake to my sis and tried to cut a slice. Motherfucker. No joke — it was a struggle to get quite a large butcher knife through it. I reckon I might have knocked too much air out of the batter when folding in the flour, and it probably didn't help that I had chilled the cake in a very cold fridge for 24 hours. And because it was so dry, it had TOTALLY absorbed the little moisture that was left in the cream. If I had wanted to be positive about this baking monstrosity, I would have said it was like a scones-and-clotted-cream cake. Except the sponge was no way as nice as scones, the strawberries were soggy and the cream had turned into what felt like chunks of butter. Disaster. But everyone had a piece. It tasted OK, but it was not what I had in mind… Welcome home sis!
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My sinusitis was getting worse and worse and come Friday, I had to take a sick day. I didn't feel like going down to the shops to get any food, but then I remembered I had bought something from the reduced aisle the day before — doughnut sandwiches. Yes, I know you all think they sound disgusting, but I kinda liked the idea! (They obviously aren't sugared or filled with jam.) I like to try new things and I had previously read about something similar here that made me drool : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Luther_Burger.
Eww. It was GROSS. I ate the BLT but I could not get through the second, and I will eat almost ANYTHING. I really hate waste, but this was too grim, and no amount of sriracha was going to help. Oh yes readers, I thought the situation was going to improve once I added a spicy eastern sauce to the mix. I think the combination of crisp salad veg against the backdrop of a greasy doughnut bun was what did pushed me over the edge... Yuk! I tossed it into the kitchen and shut the door for the rest of the day *shudder* On the plus side, it has put me right off doughnuts.
Oh god, me and Blog Mate watched a very interesting documentary on the BBC. It was called The Men Who Made Us Thin, and it was depressing as fuck. Catch it on iPlayer if you can. It's all about diets and how basically everyone — after losing weight on ANY diet programme —will put it back on in five years. What the fuck is the fucking point??? How do we lose fucking weight then? Do fat people just have to accept they will always be fat?
URGH. I am going to try and watch it again and see if I can glean any meaning or hope from it… If you have any thoughts on it, please let me know!
Monday 5 August 2013
Week 9 : Foodie Heaven, Dieting Hell
I knew this week was going to be difficult, so I'm not sad about the fact that I only lost a paltry 0.2lbs. In fact, given the circumstances, I'm fucking lucky I didn't put on! This week was going to be a challenge from the very start (I barely counted anything on my app), because there were going to be three 'eating out' events. And none of them involved me making particularly sensible choices.
My Monday fast was not as good as it could have been (605 calories, whoops!), but it also wasn't a total washout. So I drew a line under it and moved on. On Tuesday, a colleague and I went out for lunch — here we come, vegetarian Chinese buffet! We both regretted this decision three hours later when we were still uncomfortably full. I initially thought that the fact there was no meat involved would mean the calories wouldn't be as bad. But they still have spring rolls. And (veggie) prawn toast. And tempura vegetables. And chow mein. It turned out to be just too much food for lunch, so I won't be doing that in a hurry again.
Obviously, I didn't snack in the afternoon, and I didn't eat a very big dinner. The original plan was to eat NO DINNER, but we were having fajitas and I wanted some. My rationale was "If I eat now, I will only eat half as much as usual, because I am not that hungry. If I don't eat now, I guarantee I will be at hungry at 10pm, and then I will eat a whole big proper meal, on top of my massive lunch". Makes sense, right? Yes, of course it does. So I had two fajitas only (I accidentally put some bad cheese in my first one — grim. But I still ate it…), and then I thought I would have a little bit of cheese cake.
Now, I tell no word of a lie — we had two cheesecake pieces in the fridge (vanilla and billionaire's). I took a TINY piece off each. Each piece was about the length of my finger and not an awful lot wider — I wish I had taken a picture to show you how little they were. They looked like the kind of mini desserts you get with a coffee in a restaurant. In total, they weighed 100g. I was chuffed that I had been so good. So then I thought I had better tot up my calories on myfitnesspal. 50g of Tesco Finest Billionaire's Cheesecake is… wait for it… a WHOPPING 220 calories. I could not believe it. Seriously. It was so titchy! It killed me to press 'SAVE' on my app… 50g of New York Vanilla cheesecake only came up marginally better at 180 calories. I begrudgingly added that to my diary as well. So very, very fucked off, but I should have checked first. Whilst 5:2 is about having a bit of what you fancy and getting on with your life, I think cheesecake, along with garlic bread, must only be eaten on special occasions. The only thing that made me feel slightly better that evening is that I kinda had the shits — too much chilli oil at lunch? This is what constitutes as good news in my world.
So Tuesday, Blog Mate and I had planned a meet up/food fest. We had been perving on the menu for Shake Shack in Covent Garden all day, only to arrive and find out that a) the queue was fucking massive and b) it was more like a fancy McDonald's (ie. you get everything on a tray at once and sit down) rather than a place where two school friends could sit for ages and have a good old natter. So, with heavy hearts, we decided to go to Byron Burger instead.
Clearly, I was feeling the loss, because I felt really sad about not getting the food I had planned in my head — "Will we go again? Are you sure you want to eat here? We could always go back there…". But Blog Mate made it all better by assuring me we would definitely go back once the summer had passed and the tourists had fucked off, which was a brilliant idea. The menu at Byron didn't excite me particularly, but instead of going for the double cheeseburger (because it would be massive and fill the sad Shake Shack-shaped hole in my soul), I went for the chilli burger. And you know what? It was friggin' delicious. In fact, I got half way through it and was very thankful that I didn't go for the double burger (it was called The Big B — another reason I didn't order it) because it would have been too, well, big. I got to the last three mouthfuls of my burger and thought "Hmm, I could leave the rest of this…", but that just seemed like a really, really, stupid thing to do, so I finished it. Eheheheheh.
Seeing as none of the desserts were that appealing, we hunted down somewhere we could have some ice cream. We turned down a street, which I mistakenly thought was the same street we visited when we went to THAT teacher's restaurant. Laughing, my friend pointed out we visited his restaurant in Soho, and we were now very clearly in Covent Garden, so it definitely wasn't and we were safe. Silly me! So we had a giggle, and continued walking down it. But then, my face dropped. There, in the distance, I noticed a restaurant sign… No. Fucking. Way. Maybe it wasn't his restaurant? We got a bit clos... No, it DEFFO was. HUGE FUCKING CUNTS. WHY IS HE EVERYWHERE??? It's like I have have some kind of homing device… URGH. YES SIR, I AM 31 AND HAVE DONE NOTHING WITH MY LIFE YET! YES, I KNOW YOU STARTED YOUR HUGE EMPIRE AT THAT AGE AND I CANT EVEN FIND A PLACE THAT SELLS ICE CREAM, EVEN THOUGH I HAVE AN IPHONE AND GOOGLE MAPS! BUT SERIOUSLY, FUCK OFF!
Eventually — after a small but public spaz-out — we found an ice cream place. Now, I'm not a big ice cream eater. I like it, but I can't eat a lot of it in one sitting. I just wanted one scoop of ice cream, but of course, this place didn't do just one — it was two scoops minimum. Now, this is a dilemma that all people who are trying to diet will have had at some point. Do I ask for one scoop and just pay the price for two? Or do I get two scoops, eating what I can and then just wasting the rest? The tightwad in me went for the first option, which was probably the wrong one. (I forgot my mantra of not being a human dustbin.) I ate all my mango sorbet but left about half of the ice cream, which I made sure I didn't eat by violently schmooshing a napkin into the pot. Sometimes, despite our best efforts, the world is against us and wants us to just get fat. We have to take these measures.
Thursday's fast was great — I was slightly under my 500 calories, which made a change! And then on Friday, it was my five-year-anniversary dinner. Obviously, I was not going to diet that evening, although I did purposefully ignore the cheesecake for dessert. But again, a three-course meal proved to be too much, as we were both quite stuffed. The service was excellent and everything we ate was absolutely delicious (FYI, I had chicken wings, steak with frites and rice pudding brulee). But I did feel bad for my bf — I got a bit tipsy on one glass of pink prosecco and just waffled on at him about what I had been watching on 4od for fucking AGES. Oh yes, and then I got teary telling him about a particularly sad bit in an episode of the sensitively-named Why Don't You Speak English? — what a total tool.
God, I need to stop typing but I am just on the last bit, I promise! I have been fucking exceptional with my exercise this week — four runs and 90% of my Davina DVD — not too shabby! (I couldn't do any more lunges, I just couldn't.) I am in a lot of muscular pain today, but it feels goooooooooood. And it stopped me from buying a two-pack of cream doughnuts last night. They were on offer, but I managed to convince myself that a saving of 42p was not worth the 550 calories they would cost me on my fat arse later down the line.
My sister is coming back from Japan after a year of being away, so that's quite exciting. She has missed salt and vinegar crisps and hummus (I've eaten a shedload of both), so I will be take those round to her this week. I also have an evening invite to a wedding on Friday, but other than that, this week is pretty clear week event-wise. Which means I should see a decent loss by the end of it. I am going to say 1.5lbs… I might be pushing my luck a bit, but I reckon I can do it.
My Monday fast was not as good as it could have been (605 calories, whoops!), but it also wasn't a total washout. So I drew a line under it and moved on. On Tuesday, a colleague and I went out for lunch — here we come, vegetarian Chinese buffet! We both regretted this decision three hours later when we were still uncomfortably full. I initially thought that the fact there was no meat involved would mean the calories wouldn't be as bad. But they still have spring rolls. And (veggie) prawn toast. And tempura vegetables. And chow mein. It turned out to be just too much food for lunch, so I won't be doing that in a hurry again.
Obviously, I didn't snack in the afternoon, and I didn't eat a very big dinner. The original plan was to eat NO DINNER, but we were having fajitas and I wanted some. My rationale was "If I eat now, I will only eat half as much as usual, because I am not that hungry. If I don't eat now, I guarantee I will be at hungry at 10pm, and then I will eat a whole big proper meal, on top of my massive lunch". Makes sense, right? Yes, of course it does. So I had two fajitas only (I accidentally put some bad cheese in my first one — grim. But I still ate it…), and then I thought I would have a little bit of cheese cake.
Now, I tell no word of a lie — we had two cheesecake pieces in the fridge (vanilla and billionaire's). I took a TINY piece off each. Each piece was about the length of my finger and not an awful lot wider — I wish I had taken a picture to show you how little they were. They looked like the kind of mini desserts you get with a coffee in a restaurant. In total, they weighed 100g. I was chuffed that I had been so good. So then I thought I had better tot up my calories on myfitnesspal. 50g of Tesco Finest Billionaire's Cheesecake is… wait for it… a WHOPPING 220 calories. I could not believe it. Seriously. It was so titchy! It killed me to press 'SAVE' on my app… 50g of New York Vanilla cheesecake only came up marginally better at 180 calories. I begrudgingly added that to my diary as well. So very, very fucked off, but I should have checked first. Whilst 5:2 is about having a bit of what you fancy and getting on with your life, I think cheesecake, along with garlic bread, must only be eaten on special occasions. The only thing that made me feel slightly better that evening is that I kinda had the shits — too much chilli oil at lunch? This is what constitutes as good news in my world.
So Tuesday, Blog Mate and I had planned a meet up/food fest. We had been perving on the menu for Shake Shack in Covent Garden all day, only to arrive and find out that a) the queue was fucking massive and b) it was more like a fancy McDonald's (ie. you get everything on a tray at once and sit down) rather than a place where two school friends could sit for ages and have a good old natter. So, with heavy hearts, we decided to go to Byron Burger instead.
Clearly, I was feeling the loss, because I felt really sad about not getting the food I had planned in my head — "Will we go again? Are you sure you want to eat here? We could always go back there…". But Blog Mate made it all better by assuring me we would definitely go back once the summer had passed and the tourists had fucked off, which was a brilliant idea. The menu at Byron didn't excite me particularly, but instead of going for the double cheeseburger (because it would be massive and fill the sad Shake Shack-shaped hole in my soul), I went for the chilli burger. And you know what? It was friggin' delicious. In fact, I got half way through it and was very thankful that I didn't go for the double burger (it was called The Big B — another reason I didn't order it) because it would have been too, well, big. I got to the last three mouthfuls of my burger and thought "Hmm, I could leave the rest of this…", but that just seemed like a really, really, stupid thing to do, so I finished it. Eheheheheh.
Seeing as none of the desserts were that appealing, we hunted down somewhere we could have some ice cream. We turned down a street, which I mistakenly thought was the same street we visited when we went to THAT teacher's restaurant. Laughing, my friend pointed out we visited his restaurant in Soho, and we were now very clearly in Covent Garden, so it definitely wasn't and we were safe. Silly me! So we had a giggle, and continued walking down it. But then, my face dropped. There, in the distance, I noticed a restaurant sign… No. Fucking. Way. Maybe it wasn't his restaurant? We got a bit clos... No, it DEFFO was. HUGE FUCKING CUNTS. WHY IS HE EVERYWHERE??? It's like I have have some kind of homing device… URGH. YES SIR, I AM 31 AND HAVE DONE NOTHING WITH MY LIFE YET! YES, I KNOW YOU STARTED YOUR HUGE EMPIRE AT THAT AGE AND I CANT EVEN FIND A PLACE THAT SELLS ICE CREAM, EVEN THOUGH I HAVE AN IPHONE AND GOOGLE MAPS! BUT SERIOUSLY, FUCK OFF!
Eventually — after a small but public spaz-out — we found an ice cream place. Now, I'm not a big ice cream eater. I like it, but I can't eat a lot of it in one sitting. I just wanted one scoop of ice cream, but of course, this place didn't do just one — it was two scoops minimum. Now, this is a dilemma that all people who are trying to diet will have had at some point. Do I ask for one scoop and just pay the price for two? Or do I get two scoops, eating what I can and then just wasting the rest? The tightwad in me went for the first option, which was probably the wrong one. (I forgot my mantra of not being a human dustbin.) I ate all my mango sorbet but left about half of the ice cream, which I made sure I didn't eat by violently schmooshing a napkin into the pot. Sometimes, despite our best efforts, the world is against us and wants us to just get fat. We have to take these measures.
Thursday's fast was great — I was slightly under my 500 calories, which made a change! And then on Friday, it was my five-year-anniversary dinner. Obviously, I was not going to diet that evening, although I did purposefully ignore the cheesecake for dessert. But again, a three-course meal proved to be too much, as we were both quite stuffed. The service was excellent and everything we ate was absolutely delicious (FYI, I had chicken wings, steak with frites and rice pudding brulee). But I did feel bad for my bf — I got a bit tipsy on one glass of pink prosecco and just waffled on at him about what I had been watching on 4od for fucking AGES. Oh yes, and then I got teary telling him about a particularly sad bit in an episode of the sensitively-named Why Don't You Speak English? — what a total tool.
God, I need to stop typing but I am just on the last bit, I promise! I have been fucking exceptional with my exercise this week — four runs and 90% of my Davina DVD — not too shabby! (I couldn't do any more lunges, I just couldn't.) I am in a lot of muscular pain today, but it feels goooooooooood. And it stopped me from buying a two-pack of cream doughnuts last night. They were on offer, but I managed to convince myself that a saving of 42p was not worth the 550 calories they would cost me on my fat arse later down the line.
My sister is coming back from Japan after a year of being away, so that's quite exciting. She has missed salt and vinegar crisps and hummus (I've eaten a shedload of both), so I will be take those round to her this week. I also have an evening invite to a wedding on Friday, but other than that, this week is pretty clear week event-wise. Which means I should see a decent loss by the end of it. I am going to say 1.5lbs… I might be pushing my luck a bit, but I reckon I can do it.
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